Sometimes I miss my family so much! Lately I couldn’t spend more than a couple of days in BM and that is not enough for everything I want to do: meet my friends, spend time with Mum, catch up with my relatives. The idea of moving there and starting anew is still there, in the back of my mind, but I don’t think I can put it into practice. I know why I left that city, I know how small and suffocating it still is and I know how quickly I get bored. But it’s good that at least I have a safety net

I feel like I can do anything. No matter how ugly things get at work, no matter how much pressure they put on us, I take a deep breath, swear a little and then I do what I have to do at my own pace. I can’t change them, I can’t organise them better, I can just try and not let them get to me.

Climbing helps a lot. The days I go to the gym are the best. I love the way everything else fades away when I’m there. It’s the perfect combination between using your own strength and finding the perfect balance. I am extremely happy when in the end I manage to climb a rout I find difficult. I love the way my body aches after a climbing session, how my coach humours me and how some other climbers push me to try more difficult things and how I exchange books with some of them. I feel great there!

We also bought tickets for the Andrieș concert and there are two book releases that I’m looking forward to. Martha is in Israel for 10 days, A. & D. have settled in Germany, my parents are in love with the dog, and as far as I know everyone else who matters is doing fine. I couldn’t be happier. Really.

81 days left until I board on a plane to Stuttgart! ♥

*Massive Attack – Saturday Come Slow

I have’t bought a book in ages! I have ordered books, I have downloaded books but I haven’t bought books. I miss going to a book shop and spending hours there, browsing through the titles, pick up the ones that I find interesting, putting some right back on the shelf when I realise they are really not my type…

I also miss reading for hours. Brewing a pot of green tea and sitting in bed with a colourful blanket on my feet and reading like there’s no tomorrow. Mum has always been very understanding when it came to my reading habits, but she should have encouraged me to read even more. When I was at university she always nagged me to do things, to go out, to meet people, to study – but all I wanted to do was to read, read, read. Now I regret those years. I could have read more! I could have bought more books! I could have put into practice my idea of forming a book club, I could have done some many things!

The Indian restaurant has become our favourite place. It might not be the best Indian restaurant in Bucharest but it’s damn cozy and I love their playlist with Kings of Convenience. The food is delicious as well (and very spicy!), of course. So from now on I am going to take all my friends there and I’m starting with Pavla. She’s coming over on the 25th of March and I can hardly wait to see that crazy Czech girl again! Last time we saw each other was 2 (almost 3!) years ago when I was in Prague! Damn, how time flies… I will try to make the best of her stay here.

Last weekend I drank tequila for the first time. I also got some reindeer antlers with bells on them (the ones you usually put on around Christmas) and I love them! I’ve always wanted a pair of those And it’s such a blessing to be there for my friends on their very important days. Some people are really worth the trouble.

I love this moody spring and I can hardly wait to take my bike out for a ride (it will probably be tomorrow when I got to the climbing gym). Pretty soon I’ll take my blanket along and stop in the park to read in the grass

*Wir sind Helden – 23:55 Alles auf Anfang

My therapist says I’m doing better, Mum says I’m in a better mood and Mum’s friends whom I’ve met have said that I’m looking great and that I look happy. And you know what, I’m actually doing great. It might be the spring or I might be getting wiser (hahahah), but in the past weeks I’ve felt more relaxed, more content and more at peace with myself than ever.

Being able to work from home has been such a mood elevator! I correct double the pages and I also go shopping, I cook, I enjoy a cup of tea, I take silly pics of Urma… All’s good.

But back home things are not going my way. Yesterday my parents replaced me with a Bichon Maltese. Yep, it has come to that. Now whenever I talk to my parents on the phone (and it’s quite difficult to get them to answer my calls) they are making those silly voices and they are talking more about the dog or with the dog than they are with me. Jokes aside, I am happy for them. My father has someone to share his days with and my mum will learn not to be so stiff about animals. I can hardly wait to see the little bugger, but I’m not cleaning up dog poo from the street!

Last but not least, we have bought the tickets from this summer holiday. I’ll be in Germany from the 21st of June until the 17th of July and we’ll be together in Berlin from the 3rd of June until we have to come back. I’m taking all my days off in one go and I am so excited about traveling through Germany, exchanging trains or trying the Mitfahrgelegenheit and seeing all my friends. A month sounds like a lot but I bet it will simply fly by. I am one lucky girl!