Ich glaub, du träumst die Träume anderer Leute*

Posted on January 23, 2012 by ionuca

I am incapable of being content. Not happy – content. Since I can remember I have always wanted to be someone else. Not to have what someone has, but to be them. No matter how many things I buy, how many cities I visit, how many books I read, how many boyfriends I have, I’m still dissatisfied, disappointed, unhappy. And it’s all my fault. Actually, I don’t know if I call it ‘fault’. It’s rather a malfunction of my system. I can write lists after lists with things that make me ‘happy’ but that doesn’t mean that I really feel that way.

I didn’t ask for any of this but everything is because of me. And I don’t know how to live blaming myself and also motivating myself. Like everything else about me, this is just another paradox.

*Wir sind Helden – Die Träume anderer Leute

Posted on January 23, 2012 by ionuca | Posted in For a minute there I lost myself, I hate Mondays, I think I'm paranoid and complicated

12 Responses to Ich glaub, du träumst die Träume anderer Leute*

B says:

January 23, 2012 at 12:27 pm

Fehlfunktionieren ist richtig funktionieren.
Elena says:

January 23, 2012 at 7:59 pm

Love yourself? You are a great person. Sometimes I wish I was more like you. Be kind to yourself. Hugs ppf!
Ralu says:

January 23, 2012 at 10:09 pm

Big hug and happy birthday!! Cheer up and don’t be so hard on yourself. You *are* loved, you know. :D :*
Meli says:

January 24, 2012 at 5:43 pm

Dear Ioana,

I wish you a very Happy Birthday and a great day! Hope you are enjoying yourself! Just one sentence: You are great and you´ve inspired me in a lot of things! :)
La multi ani! Te pup!
Meli
ionuca says:

January 24, 2012 at 10:38 pm

@B: I should make that my new motto in life

@Elena: you’re so nice! Thanks for the support! Hugs back!

@Ralu: hehe, this is always a difficult time of the year for me, but fortunately I’ll get over it! *huuuugs*

@Meli: thanks A BUNCH! I’d love to see you again this year, maybe in July in Berlin Many many hugs and kisses!
J.J. says:

January 26, 2012 at 4:46 am

Pai atunci you should have a girlfriend
Meli says:

January 26, 2012 at 1:49 pm

Ar fi super! Sunt in Germania anyway! :D Pupici!!
ionuca says:

January 28, 2012 at 5:56 pm

@J.J.: nu sunt împotriva ideii, dar cred că aș prefera mai mult a room mate și BFF în aceeași persoană

@Meli: De-abia aștept să ne vedem!
J.J. says:

January 29, 2012 at 10:57 pm

Ce va mai plac voua fetelor si fetele :D
Gracie says:

January 31, 2012 at 2:03 pm

It worked for me: as soon as you wake up, each morning, look yourself in the mirror ansd smile at you. If you don’t indulge yourself, noboby will do the same to you and you must love yourself before anyone else. You’re a good and nice person, just admit it and live with it.
ionuca says:

January 31, 2012 at 6:00 pm

@Gracie: I know, I know, but it’s more difficult to put it into practice
vio says:

February 1, 2012 at 9:11 am

oh, I just love what Gracie told you:-)
:X <3