Well, Vio came and went. We didn’t get to spend very much time together and I’m a bit upset about that but in the end it’s still OK: we got to talk late in the night, something which I hadn’t done in a very long time. I think I give the impression that I care more about my friends who are far away, which is not true. It’s just… well, I don’t get to see them often and when we meet it’s great! We have so many things to say to each other, so many stories to tell, so much gossiping to do :)) Even if I don’t meet my friends who are here as often as I’d like to, I know I can count on them and we can always meet when we feel like it so that thought comforts me.

My life is a big ‘I don’t know’. I’ve always been moody and indecisive but I feel that I’m losing control. Nothing is good enough for me, nothing makes me happy, nothing motivates me. Shit. Shit. Shit. I’m not depressed, I’m just dissatisfied, with a pinch of unhappiness. And talking with my older and wiser friends doesn’t really help cause they’re going through the same thing and they can’t do anything against it. And no, I can’t just let it go, move on, stop complaining, just do it, whatever, cause it’s not a mood, it’s a way of being and you can’t just shake it off.

At least I read a lot. I feel good every time I finish a book and start another one. I feel like I accomplish something. If so, it’s the only thing I accomplish. Well, OK, I’ve started doing some cardio exercises and contrary to what I had thought about these things, I enjoy doing them. Now I’ll be even fitter to do nothing.

*MIA – Hungriges Herz

Posted on by ionuca | Posted in I think I'm paranoid and complicated, Music sounds better with you, My Bucharest, Pictures of you, Try walking in my shoes, With a little help from my friends

13 Responses to Wie weit willst du gehen*

  1. by Meli on July 27, 2011 at 10:41 am

    One of the best songs ever! :D Love your photos, the one with the mirror is awesome! ;) xx

  2. by Yuki on July 27, 2011 at 8:54 pm

    nice dress :)

  3. by mony on July 28, 2011 at 1:10 pm

    I feel the same regarding books….every single time I finish one I feel really good.Regarding the motivation part I can only say here here!having a crappy job sometimes tends to make you bitter and mean.Especially if you are working with a bunch of ignorant people…

  4. by ionuca on July 28, 2011 at 10:19 pm

    @Meli: I’ve started listening to German bands and I love it! :)

    @Yuki: thanks, it’s my LBD. I think I wore just once :))

    @mony: I just don’t like one particular person but it’s enough to ruin my days…

  5. by Meli on July 31, 2011 at 7:18 pm

    That´s cool! ;) Dear God, I just saw that really old photo of me in Lipscani, really sad background somehow. I like it though! ;) Loooong time ago! xx

  6. by ionuca on July 31, 2011 at 7:33 pm

    @Meli: you were also a bit sad cause it was one of your last days in Bucharest :) You should really come and visit!!! I miss you! :)

  7. by Gracie on August 2, 2011 at 3:28 pm

    Nice feet kiddo! I’m back and ready to catch up….

  8. by ionuca on August 2, 2011 at 8:25 pm

    @Gracie: I’m glad that you’re back, I’m sad that your holiday is over and I can hardly wait to read the impressions and see the pics :)

  9. by Daniel Stanciu on August 5, 2011 at 9:40 am

    Semeni un pic cu Ben Gibbard! Un pic mai mult de fapt. With breasts. Beautiful breasts.
    Si nu… nu sunt obsedat… only stoned. Literally.

  10. by Gracie on August 5, 2011 at 5:11 pm

    Updated with lots of pics…..

  11. by Meli on August 8, 2011 at 2:32 am

    Oh dear! ;) Will definitely come again and of course visit you! ;)

  12. by daria on August 15, 2011 at 1:21 pm

    I love the cat pictures! :)

  13. by ionuca on August 15, 2011 at 1:26 pm

    @daria: thank you, although it’s difficult not to like cat pictures ;))

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