That simple

23 Feb

I’ve always been a “simple things” kind of person. Almost anything could make my day. But lately I’ve been wanting this one BIG thing; what exactly, that I don’t know. But I know my small things didn’t make me happy anymore. I ignored them, made them look insignificant, dismissed them. I didn’t make myself happy anymore.

And it just hit me: all this complaining, feeling depressed all the time, having panic attacks about the future, all this shit that was going on was only because of me. Me, me, me. Cause it’s way easy to complain than to actually do something about it, isn’t it?

So I’ve decided not to bitch anymore. To do something about this, whatever this is. I am so scared of not having enough time for me, but in fact I have a lot and I just waste it instead of making the best of it. I know, it sounds like a stupid self-help book, but sometimes you just have to help yourself.

And in order to do that I’m going back to the roots. Back to being a colourful, silly, spoiled, gullible, “I love this world” child. No more bad hair days, not more giving a rat’s ass about what to wear, no more frowning while walking around the city, no more letting stupid people bring me down *or at least that’s what I’m going to try and do*.

Besides, I want to do something each and every day. And something can mean a lot of different things: smiling to a stranger, reading on Wikipedia about something I’ve always wanted to read but “never had time to”, buying snowdrops, not picturing how I’m killing the stupid fuck who accidentally touched my hand in the metro, playing more with uRMa, you get the picture.

I’m really excited about this, though I know it won’t be easy sticking to it and I know happiness doesn’t show up on command. But I really, really think I can change and just be Me again.

Wish me luck! :)

13 Responses to “That simple”

  1. Roxa 23. Feb, 2009 at 2:01 am

    :) ’twas about time ! :D Good luck with not giving a crap while enjoying little things !

  2. Ioana 23. Feb, 2009 at 2:57 am

    That’s my girl >:D <

  3. Fen 23. Feb, 2009 at 8:38 am

    Uf, pe mine m-a tinut o saptamana chestia asta. Acum vreau inapoi la viata mea de asocial.
    Bafta!
    (da chiar, eu ti-am dat haina aia inapoi?)

  4. Gracie 23. Feb, 2009 at 10:47 am

    Bravo! Cheers to you my girl! That’s the right attitude to life. There’s a line (don’t remember is it’s from a movie or a book) that says “this is the first day of the second-half of my life”. Make the best out of it!

  5. jane 23. Feb, 2009 at 2:02 pm

    best of luck!! and you’re not the only one bitching about life. i do that too sometimes. happily, i remember to say stop and enjoy whatever nice things come my way :) and there are quite a lot of those :D

  6. ionuca 23. Feb, 2009 at 8:38 pm

    @ Roxa, Ioana, Gracie, jane: thank you so much, girls! >:D<

    @ Fen: am spus ca nu o vreau inapoi, ci ca vreau alta haina SH, ieftina, which fits me, in locul ei :))

  7. Eugen 23. Feb, 2009 at 10:46 pm

    LUCK!

  8. delia 25. Feb, 2009 at 9:04 pm

    m-am intors de la budapesta cu o coka-cola cherry mica pt tine. cum ne vedem? sta cumintica in frigider:) .

  9. morbo 26. Feb, 2009 at 10:20 pm

    from what i’ve read here, overall i have the same problem as you. who knows, details may be different, but all in all…and a couple of weeks ago i arrived to the same conclusion. so a heart-felt good fuckin’ luck with it, to me and you!

  10. ionuca 27. Feb, 2009 at 12:02 am

    @ eugen: thanks :)

    @ delia: paaaai, am putea iesi la un ceai, dar sa-mi spui cand ai tu timp :) Sau puteti veni la Schimb de carti, duminica, daca nu aveti alt program :) MERCI mult de tot! :) :) :)

    @ morbo: oh yeah, tons of luck to us both!! :)

  11. Sandra G 27. Feb, 2009 at 4:05 am

    Congrats! A beautiful post!

    Try taking up juggling, it’s what keeps me in a mary poppins mood when the going gets tough :D

  12. delia 27. Feb, 2009 at 2:37 pm

    ok! schimb de carti sa fie, duminica. unde? la cat?:) cu drag.

  13. ionuca 27. Feb, 2009 at 2:42 pm

    Hiii, ce fain ca vii/veniti!!! De la 3, in Lucky 13. O sa fie multi oameni frumosi si multe carti frumoase, sper sa va placa :) >:D< !

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