Rainbow Child

‘This is it, Jol, I’m gonna be gone soon.’
‘I know.’
‘What do we do?’
‘Enjoy it.’

Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

Soundtrack song: Beck – Everybody’s gotta learn sometimes

Well, it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. I ate too much, drank not as much as I wanted to, saw a part of Pan’s labyrinth, the cookies were not that great, the family reunion was bearable…

However, I’m still a bit antisocial. I can’t stop thinking about how I’m forced to spend my precious time doing stuff I don’t want to and meeting people I don’t care that much for. I’m always thinking I could be reading or sleeping during that time, that I could be doing thing for me, myself and I. I know, I’m a selfish bitch. But, I have to admit, I met two dear friends and we had a pleasant time talking and I can hardly wait to have tea with Puck these days, so I’m not entirely a lost cause.

The more I think about this, the more I believe this antisocial behaviour comes with the books, the tea and the cat. Once you have those 3 ingredients, you’re doomed Speaking of tea, I received a very fancy tea-box. It’s made out of wood and it contains 2 tea storage tins and an infuser. It’s like a traveling kit for teaholics. I looooove it Thanks Mum, this was really a surprise The colourful scarf and the book I received came as well as a surprise. So thanks M. and L. Uhm, yeah, Santa was generous this year

Anyways, it’s 4 in the morning, I should really go to bed. I’m off.

I was in a coffee house with M. I only say her when she was going up the stairs. She didn’t even stop to mutter hello, didn’t even look in my direction. I was really matter-of-fact about that, but it still amazes me how two people who once were best friends now don’t even want to accidentally bump into each other. Oh well, shit happens.

And this is the reason I don’t need/want/believe in this concept of best friends anymore. Nobody’s worth the feelings, time and energy such a relationship needs. Let’s just be friends, m’kay?

I’m in Baia Mare. Again. I can’t figure out what I actually feel about this town. 19 years of my life are crowded in this little town, friends, ex-friends, ex-boyfriends, people I can’t stand – they are all here. And I have no idea if I loathe it, love it or if I don’t care about it at all.

I feel out of place, that’s for sure. And I feel antisocial; I mean, there are some people I really want to see, but what can do about the ones I don’t want to meet? I want to stay in my room, with my music [this is my latest obsession: Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds - Breathless], with my books, my cat, my oranges and my chocolate. I don’t want smelly pubs, I don’t want to make small-talk, I don’t want to tell everyone about my job, I don’t want to do uni assignments…

Anyways, I have to staple a smile on my face and learn by heart some answers, cause I’m going to meet my family and they’ll all want to hear the same things: how are you? You’ve changed jobs? Really? Where do you work now? Do you like it there? Can you handle both the school and the job? Aren’t you sick and tired of Bucharest? etc etc etc.

Oh well, I’ll survive.

Ps. This is the video from Romania that Andrew made. It’s so funny I miss you guys very, very, very much

I’m feeling really good right now. Well, I’m exhausted, but that doesn’t count. It’s been one hectic day, but I’ve managed to do almost everything I had planned to, which is great.

I went Christmas-shopping and bought everything I wanted! Well, they weren’t actually the things I had on my list cause I found other things, nicer than what I had in mind ^_^ I’m so happy I’ve bought these cute presents for my friends and I hope they’ll like them too, cause that’s what really counts

Anyways, I went to and fro between Carturesti and Sala Dalles, I looked at hundred of things, I couldn’t decide what to buy, but in the end it was ok. And then I was so happy, so glad, in such an I-love-you-guys mood.

I can’t believe how lucky I am. Mum was in town with business and she took me shopping and I ended buying a very colourful skirt and an adorable green cardigan I can hardly wait to wear them! And that will happen this Friday, at the office Christmas party. Uuuuh, my very first office party

Oh well, I’ll be off now. I’m hungry and tomorrow I have to get up early in the morning [at about 9 o'clock ] so I can get to a post office in the other part of the city to pick up the Threadless T-shirts Laura and I ordered. Heck, it’s going to take forever to get there, but I want my T-shirt!

Ps. I think the people living upstairs are having sex. Not funny!