He hasn’t written or called or talked to me on YM. And I’m standing here and crying my eyes out for someone who doesn’t want me anymore. How stupid can I be? But I wrote him an e-mail and told him I know what his decision is and I want only one last thing from him: to leave me alone. No calls, no messages, no e-mails, no nothing. And we’re both so stubborn that no matter how hurt we are, we won’t ever tell the other.

And I don’t want to go to church, I don’t want to pretend I’m happy, I don’t want to cry, I don’t want to miss him, I don’t want to want him anymore, I don’t want to feel anything for him, I…